Trying to Bloom again

roses reflectionFacebook’s new status asks “How do you feel?”  I want to write awful somedays, and just don’t. No one really wants to hear that you are temporarily down, fighting your way back to the light. No one really is interested in your drama, they all have enough of their own. If we are lucky, we have a few individuals who really care. The rest are screen actors in the play of our lives.

I look at my reflection in the mirror, I am quite unrecognizable to the woman I once was.  I feel much like the lovely rose I placed above this post. A bright vivid flower I am, desperately trying to find an environment where I can thrive, live. I look and all I can see is darkness, my dark reflection of myself.

I guess I m complaining that my family has not come to terms with my illness, when in fact I have not myself.

I just saw this article, about a man with MS and it was geared at those of us living with chronic illness. He said when things get tough for him, he reminds himself that tomorrow, today will be yesterday.  I like that.

I have tickets to a wonderful concert in a week and I am so scared I’ll still be sick. Of course my visit to the emergency room was FRUITLESS and I received no help so I remain dizzy and short of breath.

please pray for me.


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