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Why I do not go to the Emergency Room

I am strong

I am watching the Concert for HOPE & Healing online at http://christianconcertalerts.com/

Its great. I definitely needed the boost of FAITH & HOPE.

I wanted to update you. I have been SOB on exertion,, with chest pain from last Wednesday. Sounds my usual. But now it was also at rest Went to my PMD  on Friday, I couldn’t even drive my sister-in-law took me.

He said I should go to ER. But my mom and son were sick so I tried to hold out.

But then I  became Very dizzy. the dizziness, so severe over the weekend almost passing out more than once made me realize I needed more evaluation. My family was driving me crazy to get help.

I went to the ER yesterday around 11:30 -12 noon. . They did an X-ray and blood work including cultures.

From 2-3 PM I sat alone in a cubicle room my cardiac monitor not functioning, showing systole alarm blaring. I called for the nurse for help. No one came.

Finally 1.5 hours later, alarm still blaring I disconnected myself from o2 and cardiac and walked to station.

No one could identify who my nurse was. The doctor there said my X-ray was abnormal, but “normal” for PH with enlarged heart. [?]

She also said all my labs were fine, and she was tying to contact my MD.

No one ever came back in to fix my cardiac monitor or see me again until I went back out around 5:30.

MD came around 5:45. He wanted to get an ultrasound machine [?] to assess my chest, but came back and said they would not let him borrow it [?]

He asked me a few questions, listened to my lungs and heart and came back basically telling me its fluid, take diuretics and stay there and reassess. I explained I had been doing that for days, and was worried about the CP and Dizziness, even when sitting down.

He basically said it’s not cardiac, that he read the big shot cardiologist  report [over 1-year-old] and if that specialist was not going to do a cardiac work up then he certainly was not going to. He indicated it was one of three things

Not a clot, probably fluid, I can’t recall what he said was # 3 could be and of course, that I was over weight. I was very upset you might imagine, as I do not go to ER unless I rally need help beyond what I already know to do.

His plan was for me to take diuretics, and walk back and forth to the ED bathroom [alone and dizzy, SOB on E] which was disgusting blood all over floor, every 5-10 minutes as I go with diuretics and then if I felt better could go home. I asked him when he was coming back, he said he was not, he was going home.

I asked him who would be following me he said he didn’t know. I asked at the station who was my RN, still no one .

my BP was 180 over 88 HR 90-110 no one was monitoring my heart, or me so I took the meds I called my aunt and went home around 7:30 PM.

I am the same, a little less SOB as long as I don’t try to talk and walk or etc… but still cp and dizzy intermittently with the vibrant memory of a fruitless effort to help myself.

This is why I don’t go to ED

I will seek cardiac evaluation at another institution where they wont be prejudiced against my based on a old report which determined that I’m just too fat.

Thanks for listening.


Trapped in a Bubble

buterfly in globe


I am trapped in a bubble…… Struggling to set myself free……..off to the doctors, hope I don’t end up in the hospital….